First Post- Looking For Some Encouragement

Hello Everyone,

I've been coming to this Forum for a couple years, but this is my first post. I was emboldened by my last aneros session and wanted to take the next step into this wonderful, supportive community. First a little background. I'm committed to the path of attaining the super-o, knowing that it can be a long and arduous journey. I bought my first aneros, the MGX about a year and a half ago. I was a relative newbie to anal play, having just used a finger now and then during masturbation and once stimulating myself (to ejaculation?) with my finger via prostate massage. I used the MGX about twice a week for a few months, then with less frequency, maybe once or twice a month for about a year, whenever I had sufficient time (my girlfriend doesn't know I'm into this, but I do plan on including her at some point). I used KY jelly and did all the recommended steps, showers, relaxation, rhythmic contractions. I did experience some pleasure, definitely extra precum, and when/if I finished off with a super T it was definitely nice, but I know there's so much more in store.

Cut to, this March/April, I bought myself an Aneros Vice. After figuring out how to get it in and get used to it, I definitely like it. The vice definitely takes up more real estate, but I find it moves less than the MGX, but I love the texture and that I can lie flat and sit with it. I started of using Vasaline covered in olive oil, but I've been using a light coating of Vaseline covered in KY jelly which seems to work better for me. That gives me 2-3 hours of good lube. I prelude with natural coconut oil and KY. I want my body to rewire, so I try not to simulate my penis (no easy feat!). I've tried the vibe settings, but I don't want that to interfere with rewiring, so I mostly leave the vibe inserted, but off or I'll keep in halfway. All in all I've gotten some pleasure, but definitely nothing to write home about. Until my last session...

I had been noticing that my nipple were much more sensitive than they had been (part of the rewiring?) and I could give myself an erection by rubbing them. So I started with a 20 minute meditation, just deep breathing, then a relaxing shower where I tweaked my nipples and was feeling aroused. I put in the Vice and layed in bed for 20 minutes. Then I practiced deep breathing synced with rhythmic contractions using the PC muscles in various positions. On my back, on my side, on all fours doggie style. With my precum I continued stimulating my nipples and breathing. I was very careful not to touch my penis, even though I so wanted to. After about 2 hours, I watched the recent Japenese pegging video that was posted here recently, where the man ejaculated by being pegged. That kind of got me really aroused and my fatigued legs stated shaking. I don't know if I helped it along or not, probably somewhere in between involuntary and voluntary contractions, but I was flailing about the bed like a fish out of water. First of all, this is extremely tiring, I was sweating like crazy, but it also started to feel really good. I wonder if in the flopping around, my penis was being inadvertently stimulated. Then I started rubbing my balls and my nipples and I got the feeling like I was going to bust, although it was building with such a slow deliciousness, I loved it. Oh yeah, did I mention I had abstained from masturbating for at least a week before! Anyway, I was afraid I would ejaculate from touching my testicles, because it really felt like I was going to come, and I'm really committed to attaining a dry-o, so I stopped. Eventually I couldn't regain the shaking, or the building impending orgasm feeling, so I stopped. But I felt energized, like I had achieved something. I didn't end with a super T. That was last week and I still haven't rubbed one out, even though I so want to, even at this moment. I feel like I'm constantly turned on, too, not with an erection, but my penis feels "plump" and I ooze precum from time to time throughout the day. I'm gonna try again tonight, but as I only have about an hour, not enough time for a full session, I may use the MGX. I figure if I had off on the ejaculation, something's bound to happen (although maybe a wet dream).

What do you guys think? Is playing with your balls an impediment to the rewiring process? I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I didn't stop touching them. I made myself cum once when I was 14 by tickling my balls with a pair of silk boxers, so I just assume I would have ejaculated. Anyhow, sorry if it's TMI and sorry for the length. I'm really excited to finally be contributing to this fine forum.

Thanks,

BostonBigKid