First One----Wow!

I'm a 58 yr old with some prostate issues. For the past year I've been noticing it taking much longer to pee, and for the last few months I've been waking up around 5am needing to pee. I had heard about prostate massage and decided to see if it would help. A search on the matter brought me to this site.

My first time with the equipment, I didn't know what to expect, and frankly had only glanced over all the wonderful information shared by others here. Up until now, I had the stereotypical "exit only" sign on my backdoor. My first session was just to see what it felt like and it took a while to get comfortable with the physical aspects as I carefully allowed the unit to explore inside me. I was nervous and had to overcome the "if I like this....does it mean I'm gay?" nonsense internal talk.

By the second night, I made up my mind that my prostate health was more important than my misguided perceptions, and I tried again. I had some smaller orgasms, but was too analytical and trying to do everything perfect while attempting to remember all the tips I had read. Too much in my head.

The third night I focused on relaxing and quieting my mind. I used a relaxing technique I had learned years ago that involves starting at the toes and releasing the stress all the up the body until relaxed as possible. I did the breathing and contraction exercises all the while focusing on becoming totally relaxed between each one. I felt a warming tingling sensation start up inside and could feel my prostate begin to throb. The in-voluntaries began and as long as I kept my mind clear, the progressed. I was excited and scared both at what was happening. I had at least 4 big O's although some ran together and it is hard to keep count.

I might add that to assist in the relaxation, during all sessions I consumed some MMJ. Last night I did my preparation which included taking a shower. As I washed my backside I started to get hard in the shower and could tell things were already in motion inside. The anticipation was building. It was like Pavlov's dog....get a buzz going from the herb, combined with the shower has become a signal to the prostate to get ready.

I didn't have the unit in for more than a couple of minutes and didn't even finish my relaxation cycle before the first small orgasm started. Within minutes the larger ones began and I was bouncing around like fish out of water. All I had to do was relax and surrender to the unit. I had no expectations and basically told my prostate that it was his show and to take me wherever it wanted to go. And it did. Sound simple, but until I get out of the way and just let things happen by themselves, I was the roadblock.

What amazed me the most was how different each Big O starts. Some begin with the contractions and in-voluntaries in my lower body, while the next one is upper body. Wherever the prostate wants the unit determined what part of my body was first affected....lower pushed the unit forward, while the upper body pushed it down. Someone mentioned the "tug of war" which is the best description I can come up with. One favorite of mine is when each hip gets going in a side to side motion The unit was moving around and with each large big one, I would tighten up my whole body and squeeze as hard as possible while at the peak of the orgasm. This only seemed to excite the prostate more and a feedback loop was begun. I must of had 8 or 10 big ones....Iost track.

My wife was laying beside me in total amazement. Then she started to tell me that maybe I should stop and take a break. Until this time I had been hands free. I decided it was time to end the session as I was nearing exhaustion anyway. I grabbed my penis and tried to finish off manually. Just as I thought I was nearing climax, my prostate said "hold on a second" and I had another big O with a dry release again. Finally I shot a huge load and lay there in a state of bliss for several minutes. I think I was floating above the bed...seemed like it anyway.

I'm not a young guy, and for many years have been in the "one and done" club. To my amazement, the penile release did not mean my session was done, and I had yet another big one shortly thereafter. Now past the point of exhaustion, I removed my unit and still had sporadic in-voluntaries for another 10 minutes or so.

Thanks so much to all for the guidance and suggestions. With my limited experience so far, relaxing and getting one's mind cleared is the key. Surrendering to the prostate and allowing it to do what it pleases is working.