working from home today...
i was physically dragged upstairs into my O chair by the needs of my body. didn't really have a choice.
i found myself pulled way into a potent fantasy, from the depths. it was when i actually "felt" myself to be living it, to be physically contacting my fantasy playmate, genitals to genitals, that the full intensity of my response emerged. (there is something so intense about swollen ardent genitals coming together).
it was kind of freaky (it was the first time i wept). it was so tangible and so much what i longed for, the realization of wants i didn't really know how to want before. like i finally really reached my sexual potential.
as usual for me, it was an aneros-less session. it was spectacular in that it was entirely mentally driven. i didn't do anything other than get into my O chair and immerse myself in the fantasy. when i really dug in and experienced the fucking, my body took off into powerful orgasms.
this was the first time that i had so intense a passion without pot.
the take home message is: go ahead, find that desire of yours and experience it.
Congratulations Darwin. You amaze me at the new pinnacles you climb. Your companion fantasy is unique. Thanks for posting it. Hope to try it soon.
Marmot
Sounds fantastic, maybe you could give me a few tips. I find it hard to visualise and have to rely on watching porn which is not always a good thing.
What position do you sit in your O chair? I mean, when you are using the aneros? I have yet to find any comfortable sitting positions with aneros in:(
oops, double post. see below.
Well, that sure was an old post.
Tips on how to live your fantasy:
1) use porn before to get a firm image of a fantasy person. then turn it off.
2) if it is an option, do a little weed. it accelerates the process 1000%
3) get totally relaxed. imagine your fantasy person relaxing you by gently touching you all around, in a foreplay way
4) imagine her/him wanting to get you excited, taking gentle caring control of your excitation. finding special ways to increase your arousal.
5) maybe gently spreading your legs.
6) s/he knows that you want to be passive, to start letting go so you can be taken and start coming like a woman.
7) imagine a finger... no... feel a finger teasing your hole. that teasing might go on for a long time till your hole is quivering.
8) maybe s/he will slowly put the finger in and discover all kinds of special places inside you to concentrate on, while perhaps the other hand will wander around your belly.
9) now go back in time to somebody you wanted so bad when you were younger. somebody you used to jerk off about. maybe swap that person in to step up your arousal and desire. they really want you this time. really.
10) finally, s/he wants to fuck you, with either a fake or real cock. s/he wants to massage you inside with that cock so you start coming against her/his pubes.
11) feel her/him pressing against you, coming because you are. feel that bodily realness of their genitals wanting to be against you, and coming too.
12) etc. the key is to totally relax and go slow with a lot of imagined foreplay. you need to be in the passive role. it's about you, and your imagined sex partner wanting badly to get you to feel intense and start coming. once you get going you can switch roles and be the fucker not the fuckee.
about sitting in a chair:
1) cut off the aneros handle
2) use a recliner
darwin
Dude that's powerful. Thanks a lot. that's gonna be a favorite of mine from now on:)
I wish weed was legal where I live!:(
Darwin, when you draw up your will I hope you will make provisions to donate your brain to the Kinsey Institute. Obviously the brain is our primary sexual organ, and you have a prodigious one.
In admiration,
Wuerstchen
Darwin said: "if it is an option, do a little weed. it accelerates the process 1000%"
I can imagine pot would enhance a relaxed focussing of one's attention on erotic feelings and fantasies but would it advance one in the rewiring process? My experience with pot has been that in the beginning it helps with creativity and imagination but the more I used it, the more muddled my thinking became and the worse my memory became. That's why I had to quit smoking even though I enjoyed it. Wouldn't it interfere with the rewiring process eventually? Or is it a different kind of memory, a body memory, that you're talking about.
What are other peoples experiences with weed?
I would think consistent marijuana smoking would interfere with the rewiring process (conditioning your body to kind of pair aneros with marijuana), however it should be fine as a "treat" every once in a while. For someone starting out I wouldn't suggest depending on the drug to bring about the desired feelings or state of mind. I prefer to be clear minded when I enter into an aneros session...although I had an amazing time well over a year ago involving a small amount of alcohol and my tempo. I'm sure it was just a lucky day however.
I have been using my helix syn with weed as it helps me relax and sleep well afterwards. Now as soon as the weed kicks in, my prostate wakes up thinking its playtime. I don't see a problem with that as it helps get me in the mood and gets my fantasies rolling. Then again I think my P wakes up when I read this forum too. Getting too high tho will put me to sleep whenever there is a lull in the session and more than once I have fallen asleep with the helix in.