Fear stopping me...

...it feels like I was in my zone of pleasure. Anal pulsing, heavy, rhythmic breathing, rapid heart rate, etc. I felt very animalistic (if that makes sense), or maybe "primal" is a better word.

That's great you are feeling these sensations after just four Anerosessions.

I had the most amazing period where I was (quietly) telling my body how thankful I was to be in it...loving myself -instead of berating my shortcomings. The memory of all this has stayed with me for the past month or so...and makes me feel sexually aroused when thinking about it.

All loving starts with one's self, if you can't love yourself then it will be difficult to fully love another person, so congratulations on making that fundamental connection with your self and body.

...I'm afraid of those involuntary writhings,screaming, convulsive looking Super-O-like experiences. I don't want that to happen! It has stopped me from trying my Prograsm again out of fear. ...and don't want to lose that kind of control. Soooo...can I keep my experience soft, self-centered, and body aware/loving without crossing into convulsive territory?

This fear, (see item #3 in the post Identifying Obstacles to Progress), will very likely stifle your ultimate pleasure as you subconsciously put the brakes on your sessions. While you can certainly program yourself to avoid entering that energetic orgasmic zone, it is counterproductive to do so.

Do I have the choice to stop if I feel it coming on?

Yes, but realize this, your current physical response may already be at the extreme end of your potential experiences! Learning to "Just Let Go !" is really where you will reap the maximum pleasure from your Aneros journey. As long as you are in a comfortable and private environment (see Identifying Facilitators to Progress) where you are not going to accidently injure yourself if major orgasmic spasms occur and you provide yourself with a suitable silencer, then you really have no reason to fear allowing your inner primal being to express its loving energy to your ego consciousness. Good Vibes to You !

Dexter: I would say you are on a great Aneros path already! I am a very "straight shooter" but have experienced many "f*****g" fantasies, both male and female, where I was either the entrant or the recipient. In my opinion, these are entirely normal and should not be suppressed. There really are no boundaries on what you may experience during your sessions. I have been at this since February 16 and generally all the sessions were "unique". I never knew what was coming! That is the intriguing part of the Aneros journey. Just keep your mind open to ALL pleasures and don't hold anything back. Rumel's tips on "silencers" is good. I have used pillows quite a few times (one recently) when my moans turned into screams! That session was "smoking" hot!

Thanks guys, that's all helpful info -especially your link to "Identifying Obstacles to Progress". Yes, concerns about being caught with something up my ass is an issue. I hadn't seen that chapter previously. In particular, Goldenboy" was your comment about fantasies of being "entrant or recipient". Reassuring. Although my previous email made my experience sound all filled with warm and fuzzy lightness (much was)...my mention of feeling animalistic involved me, on my haunches next to the bed, head and arms slung over the mattress and literally panting and breathing like a bull in heat...and moaning f**k me...and yes, did I mention I was being auto-f***ed by my Aneros due to my anal contractions! Good God! So...it was all great fun (to say the least), and a bit scary, and the next morning sort of unbelievable. Mostly, it made me concerned about what might be down the line...and if I could handle it. My concerns are very real (otherwise I wouldn't have posted...first time ever)...but given your messages, I'll pull the Aneros and lube out of the closet and give it another go. I'll keep the pillows close. ?

Hello, Dexter -
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I don't know If I can add much more to what goldenboy and rumel have already said. I have a similar response and get pretty "animalistic" too. I seems to me that the fear of being "discovered" is hindering your experience. The idea of having to dampen your vocals is sad to me. I find that allowing your body the freedom to respond however it likes, gives you the best orgasmic experience. I don't really have a suggestion about how to solve the "sound" issue. But, PLEASE don't be afraid to let the animal take over. Let it roar. Enhance your orgasm times by giving in and letting go!!!
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