Dead down there?

More background; I'm not by any means disappointed with the Aneros. Use of it develops in me a great sense of calm and well-being which I love. I just desire to break through to the Super-o.

@reddog152

What do you mean ‘nothing since’. I can’t understand how you’ve been there a long time ago but not now? What has changed? Are you healthy? Do you masturbate a lot? Lots of porn?

Usually the steps of progress build belief in us that we can do this. 

@helghast, nothing since as far as anything approaching a super-o. I have very rarely gotten really minor P-waves. I do have a fairly low libido currently so have a hard time getting aroused but didn't have that back when the super-o happened. Nearest I can figure is that really early success built up expectations so I was never successful again. As far as porn, not very much. I have tried SR for a week or two at a time with no noticeable change. 

Posted by: @reddog152

Nearest I can figure is that really early success built up expectations so I was never successful again.

Or maybe it changed your mindset into taking the lead? I think I have that a lot, where my brain is like "Here I've done this before, let me lead the way". And then when that doesn't work, I try to "lead" harder out of frustration. And I don't even realize I'm doing it. I suspect there's something going on with me at a level below my conscious awareness. Like how I'll often build muscle tension in my eyes, as if I'm "retreating into" my eyes, I've no idea why I do it, but it's a session-killer when the muscle fatigue starts to hurt. I'm almost starting to believe in "chakras" at this point, this shit is so weird.

@reddog152

Have you reported your low libido to your doctor? Maybe a check up would be beneficial. Or maybe you’ve just gotten yourself pinned down in your mind.

@Clenchy

I loved that phrase..” almost a starting to believe in chakras” I thought all you boys around here believed in Chakras no? 😉

Posted by: @helghast

@Clenchy

I loved that phrase..” almost a starting to believe in chakras” I thought all you boys around here believed in Chakras no? 😉

I've entertained the idea as a metaphor or a visualization, but I feel like there's a line between that and actual belief.

Posted by: @clenchy

I'll often build muscle tension in my eyes, as if I'm "retreating into" my eyes, I've no idea why I do it

It sounds like a hardwired human response to mentally searching with great intent “the prize” and anything you can do to further yourself along, that your eyes’ rotational, tracking and focusing muscles go into high gear.

Insightful post.  Openness to gain insights about yourself is part of a progressing journey, I think.  Yes this stuff’s weird.

Posted by: @clenchy

there's a line between that and actual belief

It is all so “far-out” to analytical personalities. The line might not be so solid as we ordinarily believe.  Have you woken from a dream that felt real?  Has music or drama moved you?  In these such cases, the brain blurs the line between make-believe and real.  We can be affected by portrayals of emotion as we can by those originating within us.  When aroused we can envision erotic energies building and conjure them into pleasures we actually feel.

Posted by: @helical

When aroused we can envision erotic energies building and conjure them into pleasures we actually feel.

I'm already there. For years before I discovered the aneros, I was lying in the dark riding waves of pleasure, once even reached a full ejaculation and orgasm from it. From no physical stimulation. I know there's something going on that we don't understand, but I don't think that immediately proves any particular theory or belief system, which is why I'm not attached to any.

Posted by: @helical

It sounds like a hardwired human response to mentally searching with great intent

Or maybe another interpretation is that there's something I'm afraid to see. To me it feels like I've withdrawn my presence from my body and I'm curled up in a very small place right behind my eyeballs. It's like some kind of dissociation. That's why I sometimes think about chakras, like maybe there's a blockage there for some reason.