Back again

I recognized the username and thought "Oh yeah Smudgefish, that sounds familiar, haven't seen that guy around in a while"... didn't think it was 10 years though, holy crap. 😮

I've never had anything serious enough that I'd call it kundalini syndrome, but in my pre-aneros days, I used to experiment with moving orgasm energy around my body, channeling feelings up my spine, etc. (which I discovered by accident). And I did have a period where these sensations started happening on their own sometimes, at inconvenient places and times, which was a little distressing... because if I wasn't in control of them, then the door was open for almost anything else to happen.
Somehow, in a way I can't even fathom, I gained the ability to shut these feelings down. It's something I don't even know how I did, there wasn't any physical routine, it was just a wordless command. After that, I stopped playing with energy in this way.
But I wonder if some part of that shut-down was too effective, that what I've discovered is a new brake pedal that I'm keeping pressed without knowing. Some kind of deep inhibition I'm not even conscious of.

Then again it can alternate between that, and "maybe I'm just lubing wrong". I don't even know anymore. 😄

Thanks @clenchy think I remember having conversations with you all those years ago! Hope you're keeping well. Does seem a bit quiet in here these days I remember having 10 replies in an hour back then!

I too often wonder if the body has a 'brake pedal' for this sort of thing that kicks in if it all gets a bit much, after all these are quite phenomenally strong forces and endogenous drugs at play, and for some of us potentially highly addictive. I remember it being absolutely out of control and I think that I was addicted to the endorphine/dopamine rush, certainly the withrawal when it stopped was painful to say the least, and the energies involved after that I think had the potential to make me psychotic, they were seriously scary. Anyway... that was a long time ago.

I've just come across Mindgasm, looks interesting. Giving that a try, maybe it will help me relax and get things moving again. Being a bit more careful and taking it slow this time though.

@smudgefish2 

In some cases, there's definitely potential for psychosis or Qi-Gong deviation, or... Different tradition will use different terms to describe "shit hitting the fan" and it's going to be bad no matter what, as some people have experienced.  I think you're 100% right that the body will deploy safety mechanisms to prevent further issues if we get too far, I believe that Kundalini people will say that you can "get locked out" from Kundalini if you can't handle it or use it irresponsibly. The big issue is that some people will get an awakening totally by accident and then all bets are off, what's to control when you don't even know what is happening...

The first sessions of Mindgasm are safe in my experience, pretty much all the free stuff is "mild" as far as creating strong Super-O states goes. The later lessons (all the paid stuff), not so much if you have past experience with unwanted energies or very strong Super-Os. There's just some verbiage in there that would be OK for most people, but could trigger incontrollable events if you are sensitive to some specific things. I won't go into details but I would really encourage you to stick with the basic Mindgasm files. And absolutely no drugs of any kind, please.