A little from my journey

I just wanted to post a bit about my progress. It's hard not having friends that you can talk to or share this experience with. My girlfriend doesn't mind. She knows I ride and she is supportive. Whatever makes me feel good. But it is still hard to just talk to her about my journey. Besides what help could she give, women cant experience this ride. I would like to say that I think I am finally progressing or rewiring myself on a more consistent level and not just baby steps here and there. This has been a long journey so far With lots of help from all the great info from those of you who have responded to my posts and from many others posts, Thank you all. This has been a great site and resource with great people for myself and many others to turn to. I have been at this for a few years now. Not really knowing what to expect but also chasing that super o you hear and read about.
maybe chasing hard enough at the beginning that it becomes forced and disappointing (At least for me). Through my journey I have had some good feelings, good vibes, sensations, little tremors and or body shaking. I did once a few weeks ago or about maybe a month ago have a great session where I had my first real break thru. I had a nice dry o. It felt amazing like i was cumming everywhere but there was only a tiny little bit of cum. I had to stop my session and I couldn't get the feeling back. One poster responded that it was a super o, it may have been, it felt wonderful. From that point on I have not had any dry o's or if so not of that magnitude. What I want to say is that from that point on I have been able to let go more. Really just let go and loosen up more. It's easy to read people's post that say about relaxing and all their tips and say I am going to do that. When ride time comes it's still forced. Come on relax you can do this, Breathe in breathe out is running through your head. It's still kinda of a mood killer. From that session of that dry o. I have been able to just ride with the attitude that whatever it is it is and I can say that now I am finally getting it mentally and physically. I understand what guys have been really trying to say. Dont go in this expecting anything in return. Just go in this with a great toy stuck up your ass. No looking to get off Or want that super o or multiple o'S rather just what is this about. Slide your toy in and just wait. Dont think about it, dont wish or want anything. Just try to feel and understand what's happening Or hopefully what should be happening. Maybe not the first or second but in time it will come. From that one session I now get deeper sensations that travel farther through my body. I can feel more movement from the aneros. I get more waves of pleasures no matter how long the duration or the intensity of each wave. I can tell what's involuntary and what not a little more clearly now. The other night I had great session that I didnt have a dry o but the waves of pleasure got me close. Each wave gets more more intense every session now. I actually got that floating feeling that I have read some people get. The feeling of just being numb and floating on a cloud. My hips thrusting away with my rock hard cock just swinging with every motion. The feeling the cum is moving up and out but never actually getting to that release feeling. It is getting amazing. I feel i am truly almost there to a point when that I get a great ride every time and not a once in awhile thing that it used to be. I would like to add that I also believe that at the same time I have been posting questions here and I think in some manner that as also helped me loosen up. By being able to talk about what's going with me evan if no one is reading or responding . Just that I am getting my thoughts and feelings out is helping. So I would encourage all to try it. Maybe it just bs or maybe it is a helpful key to letting go. Please If any one tries this and has success share with me and others. Let try and get all users to a state of bliss. Thanks you for your reading and any comments you would like to respond with.