Mind blowing

So yesterday I felt like I needed a session. I used the Eupho syn trident for a while. It felt nice, but it wasn’t doing much for me. I felt like I needed a change, so I got out the MGX trident. There was an immediate improvement. I could feel it vibrating. It felt pretty good.

After a while I seemed to hit a plateau. I decided to switch to the Helix trident. I’ve had it for a while, but until recently I never got much pleasure from it. For a long time my body seemed to respond most strongly to the Eupho and MGX trident. Recently, it seems that my body is craving a massager that gives more focused direct stimulation like the Helix. After I put it in I had a pretty mind blowing experience. The orgasm built up slowly. At some point I had a feeling that is so difficult to describe. I got this sinking feeling. It’s like all my essence and attention was pulled inside of myself compacted down in the center of my body. I could feel a surge of energy from my lower belly up into my chest and then into my head. I felt this feeling of pulsating expansion. My body was warm and fuzzy. I almost felt like I was going to have an out of body experience. I think I felt a little fear. I didn’t understand what was happening. I’m feeling kind of frustrated because I don’t have the language to fully describe what I felt. I thought I might be losing my mind, but I knew I wasn’t. I thought I might die, but I knew I wouldn’t. I felt calm peaceful bliss. Nothing else existed or mattered. I was fully in the present moment. For a little while, time stood still.

When I started this session I had doubts about whether anything would happen. I seem to have my best sessions when I’m almost indifferent.