Yesterday was a very intense day. My first dry orgasm for ages, a state of ecstacy during the day and almost a full Kundalini experience out of nowhere.
Then it went quiet. I felt very stressed as if all my progress over the last week was for nothing. My children were misbehaving, one developed a fever. I tried for another orgasm last night but couldn't relax into it. My wife was very stressed and I could feel it and that didn't help, disappointment set in again.
I couldn't sleep and now I'm tired at the start of a 60 hour work week.
Yesterday I was flying and progressing, now I'm grounded but not in a spiritual sense. Time to relax and see what happens it's probably all for a purpose.
— I was in a meeting at work at lunchtime when I suddenly felt very dizzy indeed and very 'zoned out', and my eyesight went strange as if nothing was really there but I could see perfectly well if I concentrated. I'm a medical doctor and this didn't feel like anything I could put a name to, although I was thinking this is what having a stroke must feel like and at least if I collapse I am surrounded by doctors. After about 5 minutes I suddenly felt a distinct 'click' in my head, and it all started to resolve although I had a slightly odd sensation of almost being outside myself over the next 20 minutes. Never any pain, no neurological symptoms during or after. It actually wasn't very pleasant.
I'm aware that I am trying to interpret this in the light of what I believe is happening to me and when lots of weird things are happening another weird thing is unlikely to be anything ordinary.
I wish I was writing here about my next mind blowing orgasm. I could desperately do with one now but I never get any time to myself until my wife has gone to sleep. Not sure if it's the best time to do anything as I feel like it has to happen quickly, and I'm just tired.