Finally I felt something INTENSE!!!...Hardware modifications were made!

Hi everyone, today so happens to be the day that I achieved something powerful. Something that I have never really been able to achieve with the Aneros after about 25 tries.
I have had both my Aneros Helix Syn and the Eupho Syn now for about a year and have not been able to feel what people in the forums describe as a prostate orgasm. I have watched videos online and read tutorials and have not felt anything. Well after today I feel as if I made major progress....I ACTUALLY FELT SOMETHING REAL!!!. Before I get to describe what I felt, I will tell you a bit about myself.

A Bit About Me
I am a 30 year old male with a Girlfriend that I live with, our relationship is filled with love, but the sexual aspect is lackluster and I believe it mostly because of me. At first the sex was fun, but I have found myself not being able to cum due to being in my head too much. My girlfriend actually loves sex and always wants on me, she always says that "she is super attracted to me". Where my problem lies is that I am too ashamed / afraid to tell her about the things that I am into (the things that really turn me on), my girl would call you a liar if you told her that I used toys to pleasure myself. So as you can guess, she has no idea that I even have these toys.
I am not an "overly sexual" guy, in fact I rarely talk about my preferences or sexual experiences with anyone. I think as a child the way I was taught about sex was that it was bad, not talked about and shameful (as if humans were only put on this earth to procreate and not for pleasure).
Fun fact: I am so private about my sexuality that in order to create this post: I am currently under a VPN IP address from a different country, using incognito mode and I created this forum profile under a secondary email account that is not linked to anything. (also I am burning this computer after I post this... 😉 JK lol)

Trials and Tribulations with the Aneros Helix and Eupho.
I purchased both of these toys after I had read about prostate massages and how they can lead to an intense orgasm. I started my journey of a prostate orgasm by using my index finger and was able to get that " I gotta pee feeling" I also managed to leak some precum. I think the precum was from being so turned on from doing something that felt so taboo. But alas the finger against the prostate just didn't do it for me, no vibrations, no electrical feeling, nothing. Just a bit of precum and the peeing feeling.
So I did some research on prostate orgasms and the Aneros Brand came up on google. From what I read online it seemed that the Helix was the most popular toy, so I got one, but since I didn't have much experience with toys in my bum I decided to also get the Eupho as a stepping stone since it is less girthy than the Helix. After plenty of tries I found that I just couldn't get that "I have to pee feeling" anymore, let alone the Super-O with the hands free method. I am pretty good at doing kegels as well, however once again I did get precum from feeling super naughty. So I began using my hands and slid whichever toy I was using in and out of myself; This felt pretty good, but once I began to relax my body I didnt get that " I gotta pee feeling", but instead got a "I have to #2 feeling" So I stopped. This was the case for multiple tries after this. Right up until 2 days ago. As most of you can understand by now, I felt pretty discouraged, but I am the type of person that never gives up. If something is scientifically possible to achieve and I cant experience it, you better believe that I will work my butt off (pardon the pun) to achieve it.

The Modifications
1) I took my Eupho Syn out and cut the handles off with a utility knife.
2) I had an old electric toothbrush lying around that I took the brush off and discarded (this leaves the toothbrush handle with a flat metal end)
3) I drilled a hole going up the Eupho Syn. I did this by placing the toy in a vice and used an electric drill.
4) I then slid the Eupho Syn onto the metal end of the electric toothbrush (for reference the toothbrush used was an oral-b 5000
5) I put a condom over both the Eupho and toothbrush handle and tied it at the end. This protected me and also was an added security measure so the toy would not detach.
6) And of course I lubed up.
Why would I use an electric toothbrush handle? I figured if my girlfriend could get off easily via clitoral stimulation due to vibration, than the prostate must work similarly. I may have to use this on my GF as it vibrates pretty well.

So How Did My Hopes and Dreams Come to Fruition?
Well as noted, 2 days ago I had just tried pleasuring myself with my unmodified toys and felt nothing. Well people, today I felt something and it was all due to the fact that I modified my Eupho, but the reason for modification wasn't what helped. I had hoped that the vibration translated from the toothbrush handle, to my Eupho, to my prostate would instantly make me Super-O. This was not the case. I continued to do as I regularly would and inserted this contraption in and out of myself. I started to feel that " I gotta pee feeling" again that I did before with my finger. I was finally able to hit my prostate. What really helped was the leverage and length of the toothbrush handle. With this added leverage I was able to manipulate the angle of the toy and actually touch my prostate, much like a curled finger.
So, I felt as if I had a pretty good formula going forward. I laid down some towels and opened about 20 tabs of pornhub of all the taboo videos I could find. I found a really good mother daughter video getting on some young stud that was very well endowed. I was probably going at this for 2 hours of just good feelings. But once I stumbled across that video, I started to relax, I started to breathe slowly and started thinking about things that really turned me on as I am penetrating myself with my new toy. In and out and against my prostate was the motion as I laid on my left side and watched my porns. First I started slowly, but as I started feeling my legs shake I kept going faster, in and out, in and out. I closed my eyes and turned my laptop off. Holy crap the feeling moved from my legs to my pelvis and all the way up my chest to my neck. This was it, I had to be close it felt like there was a fireball in my chest. I felt invincible. I shook involuntarily for what felt like forever. I felt the giant strong pulses about 5 times in a row, it was amazing. I then stopped and felt very proud of myself for not giving up and began to masturbate with my penis normally. I shot a giant load on my chest, but the orgasm was just alright compared to whatever I felt minutes before. I was so turned on that I tasted my cum....weird right? For about 3 hours after I was pre cumming so much just from thinking about what just happened. I would have attempted again, but my GF was on her way home and my friend was on his way to pick me up to go to the gym (where I also was leaking precum non stop).

What Was I Thinking About?
At the time I was thinking about being younger and finding out that my friend Chris had a huge cock, like this thing was so thick and so long. I remember the first time he showed it to me, I couldn't believe it, my best friend had a porn stars dick. I used to fantasize about him having sex with girls all the time and would imagine the women worshiping his cock I then started to fantasize about my co-worker and myself stumbling into Chris' bedroom while we were at a party together on a date. Chris was in his bed pleasuring himself with his huge cock out. My co-worker Ally (who is a really great friend as well as a colleague in real life, she is also tiny and looks stunning) started fawning about Chris' really big member and kept saying to me "OMG its so big, its bigger and thicker than my arm, I've never seen anything so beautiful and big". I then began to watch her gravitate timidly closer to Chris, wrapping her beautiful, tiny , well-manicured hands around Chris, even though she was on a date with me. Ally kept looking over at me for approval, she then said "Im getting so wet just by touching it". I was totally okay with this as I was getting turned on just from watching her. After some time watching her grope his beautiful phallus; Melissa (a friend of mines also tiny beautiful GF) walked in and asked "what the hell was going on" she looked on at Ally and Chris with intrigue as she followed up by removing her clothing slowly and joined them. She then looked over to me and asked "did you know he was like this?". I nodded and started stroking my cock which in comparison to Chris was less than half the size. The girls both looked at my naked body and paid me no mind, they were both so turned on from Chris, that they didn't care if I was there with my inferior dick. I was mostly being turned on by watching my beautiful co-worker Ally with this monster and that we were going to be able to share this memory/ experience together. Ally began giving Chris oral while he ate her out. I was surprised that she was able to fit as much in her mouth as she could. Melissa was licking Chris' balls. Both girls took turns riding this bull, experiencing orgasm after orgasm. Once Chris was ready to finish both girls went to their knees and took his ginormous load to match his ginormous cock. They cleaned him off with their mouths and the group showered together. I came and blew my load around the same time Chris did, but nobody paid attention, as I was trying to keep it as quiet as possible. This was Chris' time to shine. After all was said and done Ally and I left the party holding hands together. Ally actually thanked me for taking her to the party. Melissa went back to the party with her boyfriend.
Fun Fact 1: Chris (friend with the big dick) and I have actually had sex with the same women before.
Fun Fact 2: I once watched Chris' then GF (now wife) suck him off as she held it with both hands and stacked on top of one another. She actually looked at me and said "look how big it is". I acted disgusted (eye roll) and then went home and jerked it.

What Did it Feel Like?
I fantasized about the above over and over until I achieved a strong powerful tingling feeling in my feet and legs which traveled up my body. I Felt a huge burning in my chest and neck and started to moan uncontrollably. It honestly felt like a giant buildup of an amazing pressure feeling. Also for HOURS after, I felt as if there were mini electric shocks going through my body, I didn't want it to end. I couldn't stop smiling. When my GF got home she noticed that I seemed incredibly happy, that's because I was enamored with this feeling. I wanted to tell everyone I knew about how this made me feel, it was way better than any regular orgasm I've had.

Going Forward
So going forward I would like to be able to use an Aneros toy to be able to achieve the Super-O without using my hands. I am super grateful that I was able to achieve what I did and honestly cannot wait to get started again with my next session. It is honestly all I have been able to think about.
If anyone who reads this is struggling, I hope my journey helps you not give up. For any prostate pros out there, I would love some advice, pointers or tips as I want to keep going with this and keep getting better....I am addicted.

It has been approximately 24 hrs since I have finished the "What Was I thinking About" portion of this essay and I have been back to work with my friend Ally. Before I met with her, I had actually been leaking precum slowly all day thinking about the orgasm, not to mention still feeling mini electrical activity around my prostate. Ally and I took a break together and I almost wanted to tell her what happened with me. I gauged it out and it didn't feel like the right time (we talk about sexual experiences with one another all the time). I really want to tell her that, I want to watch her fuck a huge cock...maybe I should wait to tell her this. Regardless I was looking at her beautiful face and just leaking precum rapidly, my jeans (Friday is jean day) were starting to show, I purposely spilled a bit of water on them, just so it didn't look suspect.