Things don't need to ramp up very high at all

I was just wondering the other day "What ever happened to Zentai?". Though I've been on a bit of a break myself.

I do get the sense that there's a certain level of permission or readiness that can be there or not. A state of "wait until" that distracts the mind from going where it otherwise could (or necessarily must). It totally makes sense in a traditional orgasm context, where we have predictable physical cues. We can sense more "work" needs to be done before we're in the possible window of climax.

I had one session about a year ago, that followed the same kind of thinking. Just treat every little pleasure as if it's a full orgasm, go limp, bask in it, savor it, let it flow out of your limbs, then go right back in for more sensation-building, expectation, and craving. It settled into a steady pattern of crave/release that would cycle back and forth every few seconds, and built in intensity the longer I did it. And I mean this cycle was rapid, 2 seconds on 2 seconds off... alternating between chasing the orgasm with raw sexual fuck energy, and dumping that energy and out my arms and legs as "satisfying relief" pleasure. One of the coolest parts of this was the expectation/waiting mindset wasn't there, at least not in an over-arching way for the session, as it usually is.

I tried to revisit this technique a while later, but somehow couldn't capture the same mojo. It was definitely one of my most interesting sessions though. I think it kept me in an optimal place both mentally and physically... because I wasn't getting too locked-in on holding tension, or chasing a sensation. It was also frustration-free, because I wasn't chasing some far-off orgasm,  I was getting my orgasm every 2 seconds, even though the orgasms might be very mild, it still completed the loop and there was nothing else lacking.
The other very promising thing about this session was how the involuntaries were building, all kinds of new fluttering that was getting stronger as I went. It's like I accidentally found a way to break my control habits.

I'm definitely going to try this again.

@clenchy 

I think it's just an alternative way to approach thing, we tend to believe that "letting go" is a process of relaxation that takes 15 or 30 minutes at the beginning of a session, while it's entirely possible to let go after every small event. Just like "do nothing" does not necessarily mean doing nothing until somethign happens, you can very well go from doing something to doing nothing at a fairly brisk pace. 

I'm having some interesting results right now where I may not be getting strong Super-Os, or long ones, but I can still recognize them as being tiny ones. Which is way better than feeling like I'm not getting anywhere. These orgasms being 1/100 of what I would experience before does not matter, I'm not in any hurry as long as I can see I'm back on the right path. 

I'm focusing on things I had stopped doing because I felt I did not need them anymore, trying to remember where I was when I started way back when, how I was approaching things, what positions I used, etc. Also stopped doing some stuff that is not "textbook" but that I could get away with because I was more experienced (or so I thought). I added a bunch of toys and techniques over time but then realized, hey I did not have all that stuff before and did not need any of it, what's different ? So it's really back to the basics right now.