The usefulness of "wiggle room" (smaller might be better!) and WAS I CLOSE?

Hi All...

Been trying this all for a little while now... most results here and there, a couple noteworthy sessions, but, nothing that i can speak of (until now) that really makes me think i am getting close - yes, a few weeks back i posted re: possible mini-O (in retrospect, it really was prob nothing!) - until now that is...

some quick background...

i have a 4 devices (listed in rough order of acquisition)...
- Helix Classic
- MGX Classic
- Eupho
- Progasm jr (based off of posts here)

Lube has been:
- Layer of vasaline on device
- KY inside (best i can) and on layer on device

Position:
- typically lie on right side

ok, that's the backgrouund

I've been primarily using progasm for past few weeks (based on all the rave reviews here!), but really have not made much progress with it (sure, some invol. contractions here and there and some nice "feelings" but nothing to jump up and down about -- the way some of your guys talk about progasm, makes me thing either: you are all lying! or i am DEAD inside! (truth prob is more like "have not yet rewired"!).

anyway, last eve i decided to mix it up a tad...

first used Helix... because it is smaller than Progasm Jr, i could really feel it move around a bit when the invols tried to start.
this generated some nice feelings (invols) and i tried my best just to DO NOTHING (so tough sometimes, since vol contractions DO
feel good!

anyway, after a while with this (just enjoying and trying NOT to let any contractions of any kind take over -- since i wanted the device to be LOOSE inside - i decided to change to progasm... thinking "perhaps things are awake now"

well, that really did not do much.... so after a while i changed to the other end of the spectrum in terms of size...

the Eupho...

(note: i relube between changes)

anyway, almost within 5 mins of insertion (and just lying) i could really feel it start to move around (again, with the Progasm being so big, no real "wiggle room" for it)...

as time progressed and those nice feelings continued, the invols really tried to make me do manual constriction... but i fought it! (like having a war!!!)... LOL

at one point i allowed the invols to enticed me to have a minor (and maintained) constriction of inner muscles.... just on the edge of being "comitted" to that constriction (tough to describe)...

while holding it there (which really took no effort) i could sense a subtle (then it built) twitching of the muscles just at the top of the Eupho... then these invols (while i still tried my best NOT to give in to a FULL constriction -- else there would be no wiggle room left!) started to amplify... and i could feel the Eupho (in area around prostate) expand (or, more precisely the muscles around Eupho constrict)...

while this happened the "wiggle room" was still maintained and the Eupho (and muscles) working in concert started to twitch by themselves... back and forth, back and forth, back and forth (and i could feel a sense of "fullness" coming over me)...

it was tough to think that this was NOT on the edge of SOMETHING!!!

sadly, i lost my focus and the feeling subsided...

i stayed that way for a bit longer... and it returned 1-2x more...

never going over any kind of edge, but, i sensed that an EDGE was building!

so...

?

i might try the following regime for the next few sessions...

Move from BIG to SMALL

in the hopes that BIG (progams jr) wakes up
the muscles and preps them for "wiggle room" once the smaller and
smaller ones are folded into the mix!

was i close???