How I had my best session yet (and discovered my new fetish)

It's been maybe half a year since I posted here, but something happened last night that I want to share with the community! 🙂

In the last 6 months, I've typically taken an edible before sessions. I feel it helps, not directly with achieving an orgasm, but with relaxing and opening up to feel your body internally, thus making it easier to reach an orgasmic state of mind, typically the calm seas variant for me.

Well, I decided to add something new to my session last night; fetish audio. I've been a diaper lover since I was a kid, so a quick Google search brought me to a list of ABDL-themed audio files. I've never been much into the adult baby part, only the idea of being able to wet in forbidden places (like public or in bed) because it feels so wrong, but the diaper makes it OK anyway. However, judging by the titles, all the audio files seemed to lean heavily into the baby part. But I was high and horny, and admittedly weirdly curious, so I gave it a go anyway.

I used a super soft Oxballs Ergo silicone buttplug with a mix of coconut oil and shea butter. This is the most comfy and long lasting solution I've come across so far. The Ergo has a very slight forward bend unlike most plugs, which is meant to rub the prostate a little extra. Then, a diaper on top of that, blanket on, headphones on, all set. Play audio.

It started with a soothing background soundscape and a woman speaking slowly. She told me to take a few initial deep breaths followed by steady and relaxed breathing that I could allow to happen by itself. She made me aware of how heavy my body was getting. How she injected her words into my consciousness out of nowhere. How I don't need to do anything except what she tells me. And maybe I will notice how I'm slipping deeper into trance with every... word...

Wait, am I being hypnotized? I thought that was absolute BS where people who are in on it pretend that it's working. As I realized what was happening, I found myself in a state of utter relaxation of the body, like I was sleeping, but with my attention fixed on her voice. And we hadn't even gotten to the baby part yet. In fact, I had forgotten all about that. I was just busy existing, taking instructions, with zero awareness of the outside world.

Next, she guided my attention to my "little toes" and a warm, soft glow in my feet. It was at this point that I began to experience the familiar orgasmic waves coming from the prostate, and now also my feet. But I didn't move. I couldn't. With each step, she guided this "glow" upwards into my ankles, calves, knees, thighs. I know this audio file wasn't made with ongoing orgasm in mind, but holy fuck it fit so perfectly. Instead of warm glow of relaxation (which was likely the intention), I was experiencing a warm glow of cuddly orgasm creeping up my legs. I was then told to allow the "warm glow of relaxation and pleasure" to spill over into my hips. "Feels good, doesn't it?" Those sentences made me skip straight to the most profound full body orgasm of my life. I'm not sure how the rest of the file went, because I was preoccupied with holding on for dear life and doing my best to simply exist. This went on uninterrupted until the file went quiet, so roughly one hour, and then another 20-30 minutes after that.

I unplugged the Ergo, got up to pee, drink, get my blood sugar up, the usual. As I sat down to eat, the soft chair gave me involuntary toy-less orgasms almost immediately. I just couldn't stop, though I didn't really try heh. During this time I gained the weird ability to act and breathe normally (almost) while simultaneously having a chain of orgasms wash over me, although weaker than the ones from the session.

So I finished the meal, and rewound the file back to where I had 'org-ed' out, and jumped back in. This time with a slightly bigger plug, a large Egg Plug by SquarePegToys, also super soft silicone. It's like having a fluffy cloud inside. New diaper. The other one got too sticky. I managed to slip back into that weirdly appealing trance state again and finished the file in constant Super-O. And I totally get the baby thing now. This experience has probably converted me. It was nice to feel free of responsibilities and totally taken care of. My favorite part was being held by the "mommy" person, and feeling like the full body orgasm was her arms folded around me like a shell of safety.

The afterglow had me locked to bed for a while, before I began to drift off to sleep, but something unexpected began to happen. Every time I was about to fall asleep, a shot of intense pleasure took me by surprise. It felt so disturbing and good at the same time. But then it became kind of creepy, almost like I was raping myself from inside. So I masturbated to ejaculation just to make it stop, which worked. Luckily. Used my dick like an emergency brake, lol.

In hindsight, I think the session went so well because the audio in combination with cannabis helped me avoid entering that state of physical excitement that makes you flop around like a fish on land. It may look more exciting on video, but it surely (in my experience) doesn't feel as good. Anyway that pretty much sums it up. I hope it made for an interesting read and possibly gave you an idea or two.