A realisation about arousal, am i the only one?

You are horny all the time or you can feel horny if you think about it? I'm of the latter sort. And I can feel ass horny and penis horny. We all probably know what penis horny is like LOL. I'm relearning the pleasure of that after abstaining too long.

I'm guessing you are referring to what I call ass horny when you describe being "patient, super aroused but in a different way". I know what you mean. For me the horniness is in my ass, it lights up with energy, feels luxuriously sexy, craves something long and hard inside butt can be satisfied just by touch.

Sometimes I get both together and then have to decide how to proceed. All this developed over time and continues to evolve. Perhaps you'll get better at differentiating them in time.

Anyway know that you are not alone 🙂

Its got me pretty low about everything, especially after my last session, it was a farce, a total farce.

I wonder, genuinely, if having constant aless feelings everyday is misleading my mind into thinking I'm ready to have an aneros session. I think thats part of the issue, i can have strong aneros-less feelings all day whilst working which makes me think I'm gagging for a session, when I'm actually not.

Why is the success or lack of success with a aneros session so important to you?

Sometimes mine are great and sometimes they are duds. I've learned some things that help me have better sessions but they don't always work. It's disappointing but never makes me feel low.

I'm asking because I don't know your answer.

Why is the success or lack of success with a aneros session so important to you?

Sometimes mine are great and sometimes they are duds. I've learned some things that help me have better sessions but they don't always work. It's disappointing but never makes me feel low.

I'm asking because I don't know your answer.

Why isn't it to you? seriously though its because i feel a real lack of connection to my body or rather the understanding of what it wants/its needs.

Life is best when you're discovering/learning and finding something new but its like i forget everything I've learned sometimes and its hard to have to 're learn' everything each time. Imagine a skilled architect, someone that relies on the money he makes from his work too, suddenly forgets his skills and has to relearn every day how do it. Its awful.

Ive experienced heaven when using the aneros, its rare, but when it happens its amazing. A life chasing such a thing is not a life wasted, but its an awful feeling when i loose that control of myself and ejaculate (usually to a crappy orgasm too, which i find odd, i should at least get a super T, right? according to the wiki yeah? hah.)

I end up with this sort of resentment of myself, it lasts a short time but its unpleasant.

I know what you mean about getting a taste of heaven and then forgetting how I got there the next time. It's a recurring dream for me. I find a treasure or the secret of life and then can't remember how I got there LOL. I look at it as a gift to have experienced it at all. Some people never have or will. And I have hope to return to this experience always.

With riding it's like I am rediscovering the way to paradise each time I'm successful. I'm good at observing subtle things inside me but NOT in remembering the way to get back. I have done it enough and know myself enough to have a general routine for getting started. That and the wiki basics and the ongoing tips here in the forum.

But if I don't get to the heights, I may try other things like chuckjo's energy moving, microcosmic breathing, massaging my abdomen and bringing up emotions. Often the emotional rides are more important than the pleasure rides. There's usually something to make it into an adventure. Even ejaculating can be a occasional treat when done mindfully. I find I have to want to have a super T for it to be super LOL.

I try to keep perspective with my life and my rides. I'm going through some life changes now. I'm leaving a long term relationship and have just stopped taking antidepressants for the first time in decades. I have to remind myself that this feeling or that is relative.

I know it's tough feeling unconnected to one's body. That has been the story of my life until recently. Aneros has helped ground me in my body. It's very good at that IMO. It's not enough for me though. From prostate awakening I'm exploring my body and soul in other ways like qigong, meditation, sensual massage, tai chi and who knows what else. Each one is reconnecting me to myself and also enhancing my sessions. I don't know what will work for you @inhope but I believe something will when you find it.

I think I can break it down a little further,

I think this frustration comes from the fact that I've never had anything in terms of intensity in my sessions as my ejaculations. So when it doesn't work out in my aneros sessions I know I'm guaranteed something orgas if of a level that satisfies me through masturbation.